He didn`t have to say that. I didn`t ask him to, truly I didn`t. I`m sure I didn`t. I don`t think he would say he`d telephone me, and then just never do it. Please don`t let him do that, God. Please don`t.

"I`ll call you at five, darling." "Good-bye, darling." He was busy, and he was in a hurry, and there were people around him, but he called me "darling" twice. That`s mine, that`s mine. I have that, even if I never see him again. Oh, but that`s so little. That isn`t enough. Nothing`s enough, if I never see him again. Please let me see him again, God. Please, I want him so much. I want him so much. I`ll be good, God. I will try to be better, I will, If you will let me see him again. If You will let him telephone me. Oh, let him telephone me now.

Ah, don`t let my prayer seem too little to You, God. You sit up there, so white and old, with all the angels about You and the stars slipping by. And I come to You with a prayer about a telephone call. Ah, don`t laugh, God. You see, You don`t know how it feels. You`re so safe, there on Your throne, with the blue swirling under You.Nothing can touch You; no one can twist Your heart in his hands. This is suffering, God, this is bad, bad suffering. Won`t You help me? For Your Son`s sake, help me. You said You would do whatever was asked of You in His name. Oh, God, in the name of Thine6 only beloved Son, Jesus Christ, our Lord, let him telephone me now.

I must stop this. I mustn`t be this way. Look. Suppose a young man says he`ll call a girl up, and then something happens, and he doesn`t. That isn`t so terrible, is it? Why, it`s going on all over the world, right this minute. Oh, what do I care what`s going on all over the world? Why can`t that telephone ring? Why can`t it, why can`t it? Couldn`t you ring? A