never had i found the label so annoying and detestable as on those occasions. an inner voice again and again clattered in my brain:you`re not inferior or dull. why can`t you just talk freely like the talkative? if you wanna have a change, it`s up to you yourself. the biggest obstacle lay inside me. as long as i could overcome my timidity, the rest would take care of itself.
      and in those years, never had i stopped this painstaking yet extremely  rewarding  shift  from  speechlessness  to  verbal strength. at the beginning, i prompted myself to give simple yes or no questions. in a step by step fashion, i was then supposed to talk in long sentences, to discuss and to present. urged by an inner drive, i took pains with the transition and witnessed with the utmost joy the change i was going through.  for the first time, i didn`t feel uneasy under public attention. for the first time, my response to teacher`s question was applauded. i rejoiced in every bit of progress i made. confidence began to set root in me and i, like a straying child who catches sight of home,was gradually led back to my mesmerized eloquence. i finally recovered what i had been craving for so long.
      now years have passed when the label of timidity no longer haunts me. i find this experience most valuable and interesting in retrospection. no doubt, labeling exerts profound influence on
individual`s development and the common belief is that people will live up to their labels, implying that positive labels inspire and encourage us whereas negative ones only worsen the situation. but after all, no matter how disheartened or frustrated we feel about the prejudice, we are the sole masters of our own destinies. why fall victims to the label? as franklin d. roosevelt said, "the only thing we have to fear is fear itself." the point is to free ourselves from the fear for negative labels and cheer up inside us the unrelenting will to overthrow them. the label is something of a mirror. as long as we adjust ourselves, the reflections in the mirror will alter too. in this sense, negative labeling may as well become something extremely positive and rewarding, just as i`ve experienced.